Apologetic Abhimanyu Sarkar (AAS)

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh

I have heard positive notes from my dear friend Gisele Barbosa.. How could I drop people left and right from my facebook. especially when some of them had written to me first time on the occasion of 50th Birthday.. err.. 51st birthday..

I tender my apologies to each one of the following who were unceremoniously dropped from my facebook (twitter) list of friends.. I am deeply ashamed of my act.. to please someone I do not really have to displaese so many people of God… My brothers and sisters please forgive me if it is possible.. I may have quite easily forgotten to add few names.. please ignore my memory failure.. if any

Angel Gupta
Tumpa Ghosh
Ravi Malhotra
Carla Flum
Karola Jomischi
Sahar Gazeran
Bharati Sharma
Lyudnmila Zueva
Rasha Zayed
Naresh Kapoor
Deepak Taunk
Lakshmi Jagular
Viajayalakshmi (vijji)
Subhash Kaura
Manoj Kumar Ojha
Moushumi Mukherjee
Devkishin Vyas
Kashmira Grewal
Deepak Bubna
Barun Sen
Obby Choudhary
Amer Sohib
Gilga Saran
Syed Kabeeruddin
Jabela Kundalia
Zhenya Sannikova
Elena Seredkina
Jasmine Jaywant
Valorie Adams
Wriddhiman Chatterjee
Raman Jetly
Nandita Kao
Deepak Bubna
Anu big B
Deepti Pote (Request was pnding)!!
Rajesh Kejriwal
Reshmi Philip
Pawan Pipalwa
Preeti Kaur
Mira Desai
Sharmila Ravinder
Ashwini Big B Kumar
Abhishek Bachchan (twitter)
Rochelle Goldnman (Twitter)
Pritish Nandy (Twitter.. not related to the blog though
Amitabh Sahenshah (Zainab)
Ibrar Hussein
Rupam Sarma
Dr. Shashi Mohan Sharma
Pankaj Shrivastav
Shankar Narayan ??
Sandeep Chouhan
Ankur Sharma
Fatima Mahomed
Mahendra Choudhari

and few who are not actually from the blog especially
Heer Saleti (Rafi dom)
Mirza Ghalib
Dr. Harivansh Rai Bachchan (The group!) How could I do that ???????
Pritam Sharma (Ref. Shobhit Kaushal )
Shobhit Kaushal ( The artist poet who died of Cancer but could meet you!)
Sunil Jagtiani (IIT, Powaii, Warden Road (and Juhu) friend )
Pradeep Bijlani (Bridge partner at Juhu)
Raju Bijlani (Bridge partner at Juhu)


I hope to recover them if they agree.. if they do not it is all right I deserve not to be on their list..

I do not think I have left out many from the list of deletions.. I had to do it from memory.. a few others who would have been dropped inadvertently

Your picture collection is worth a great deal.. only I am right now more committed to other things especially Amrit needs my attention for reason other than studies his aloe pacia is on the aggravated state.. Savita has been struggling day in and day out with her school and household acts..

I thought I needed some extra time to myself.. I wanted to write out Kahan kahan se Guzar Gaya.. and also do something about war against Cancer.. that time I am going to buy from my cricket writings.. I would not discuss cricket even if the BCCI is not sending their team to Asian Games..

Last but not the least brother.. I thought there was not much enjoyment in what I was writing here.. I myself did not quite like what I had been writing of late.. I thought I needed more focus..

If the above set of people read this account they should not be too unhappy with my action.. it was not a reaction..

Love affection and Respect
Abhaya Sharma

The few ones I missed to mention -

Puneet Jha

Puneet Puri

May 30 2010

Dearest Brother
I have taken a vow that I shall not write at your blog till my friend Gisele Barbosa does tell me that she is not unahappy with me.. that she does not feels that I have deserted her.. that I am not intending to be sarcastic when I request her to return to normalcy after the death of Patrick.. that I could never spit on such a huge friend in my life.. that she is above you..when it comes to pick one out of the two.. just the two of you..

If she does not forgive me.. if she decides not to write back to me in as many words that she is not unhappy with my acts I shall not return to the blog.. funny.. I came to the blog becuase of her with the hope that someday I would be able to establish a relationship with you whatever distant.. yet close enough to be able to communicate to you the existence of Gisele Gomez Barbosa..

No,no I am not unhappy with you for any reasons.. I am not unduly perturbed with any thing.. I may keep away from blog for an important and intelligent fan from Rhode Islands in America.. the author of the book - The Power of Fate.. Gisele G Barbosa.. Her first book a copy of which she says she had sent to you.. and some three years back on 29th May had sent me a mail if I could tell her if you had received her book.. a union that built over next one and half year of great associateion diminidhed with my arrival on your blog.. the more I wrote on your blog.. the less could devote time for her.. the time I spent with you and the rest of the fellow bloggers came at the cost of my association with her.. can she really forgive me if not forget my sin of breaking away not knowingly.. not to hurt but incidenatally.. and accidentally..

One fine day I heard of her son'd death.. I was not knowing how to console her.. I drew further away from her.. as I did not knwo how to react.. I have been misunderstood..

I know lot of people may not like my story for its the simple bare truth and truth is always strange in appearance..or so they say..

Response to day 683

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh

It is great to see that BAFTA did honor Jaya and Abhishek.. a recognition from anywhere is always good.. the one from BAFTA is specially more so..

Your attempt twittering was quite good.. no, no, I do not have any reasons to please you even if some AZ thinks that I do so to degrade his position or standing.. it is all right.. he is allowed what he wishes to think of me, you and him.. I have nothing against anyone.. nor do I have to explain myself unless really required.. threatening someone is out of question especially if someone calls one his elder brother.. he remains as dear to me as he may not understand.. despite that nasty phone call.. and subsequent writings here or in form of the SMSs.. AZ please live in some peace.. I am no competitor not only to you but not to anyone on this earth.. think positive.. that is the key to one's happiness.. if one does not accepts the abuses from another they reflect back onto the same person.. so be very careful when you speak over phone especially if you are also recording it for some reasons.. God bless you..

Brother.. there is no reason for me to take back my comments about the DAE/BRIT incidence.. though I did request AZ to get rid of them.. it is all right.. I haven't reported anything silly.. have valid fears in the light of the times we are living.. the incidence does appear to be simple burglary case and the culprit has been nabbed as well.. yet some reporters had completely wrongly added their own stories to it in the press.. that is nothing new.. yet in such sensitive matters the press must be more careful and maintain some sanctity and keep away from rumors.. I am slightly less scared of the event..
The Hockey team now has to only play for pride.. do not believe in the kind of permutations and combinations that media is building about India's prospect.. though for me.. semi-final is not the end of the road.. an improved world standing at the end of the tournament would be an achievement good enough.. and I must admit here that boys in the blue have been performing to their abilities if not beyond.. that in itself is some consolation.. if India could beat England which I seriously doubt they would probably be standing a chnce to feature in top six Hockey playing nations of the world and that would be no mean achievement by any standards.. so Sandeep, Shivendra, Sreejesh go ahead an d do your best.. I would eve love to see more action from Rajpal, Arjun and Pillay they have been playing good Hockey and even if they fail to win against England it would not matter so much.. we have witnessed a surge of interest in the Hockey and for this we must thank the FIH for holding the prestigious world cup event in New Delhi..

I also read the views of Dr. Manmohan Singh about his dialogue with Pakistan.. I fully support his view.. No, no, I am not a staunch supporter of any political system I only acknowledge a good deed and stand on the matter.. Dr. Singh is perfectly right when he says that maintaining distance has not helped our cause.. maybe the talks could some day initiate a better understanding between 60 year old rivals..

Love Affection and Respect as always
Abhaya Sharma

A Message for Amitabh Ziibbu

AZ.. I may still go and watch the Teen Patti some day.. it is only a matter of one man’s meat may be other man’s poison.. something that could be applied to films as well.. you see we are all different and diverse in our interests and likings.. what I may not have liked may be liked by you or say X.. what the X likes may not be liked by you and me.. do not try to impress upon me or others what is your perception.. it is all right.. do not treat it as complaint.. I know you are a well meaning guy despite my such bad time for some of your previous acts.. I do treat you as a younger brother and thank you for your wishes for Amrit and the other advises…

Dearest Amitabh Ziibbu
Cool down boy!


I do not know where and how have I disturbed you.. rather I had honoured you by asking to get this particular message to be deleted for some of my comments regarding DAE issues that I had aired and I wanted them to be deleted these from the blog as you had also agreed to send a mail to Mr. Bachchan in this regard…in the morning..

If I were not holding a high opinion about you I would not have asked you to help me in this matter.. which you so amicably agreed in the morning..

I have copied the initial message to you so as to apprise you of my opinion about the movie Teen patti when you said you had not liked it and asked me not to go for it.. it is all right if I have hurt you in any way.. I fully apologise to you.. I had used the one man's meat is another man's poison in the context of your opinion.. meaning I would still go and see the movie even if you had different perception.. as I think it would be a great movie ..

This phone call from you half an hour back came quite a bit as a surprise.. I was taken off my feet and see no reason or fail to understand why you talked the way you did..
It is upto you to write and tell brother or anyone for that matter what you think of my comments.. it is your prerogative.. but where did I threaten you.. in what way.. how can you say that I am after spoiling your image in the mind of Mr. Bachchan..

These things are not at all clear to me.. I may please be pardoned if I have unknowingly hurt you.. it was never ever my intention.. in fact it was me who called you yesterday after receiving your well meaning SMS to Amrit for his exams.. I made him to talk to you despite his unwillingness.. he does not like to talk to unknown people.. yet I forced him to talk with you..

That you behave nastily over phone when I was in a meeting at the office so much that I had to leave the meeting and come out to attend your call.. it does not augur too well.. I say this in the sense that I mean well of you.. if you think by recording the conversation as evidence you would book me for wrong reasons you are completely misplaced.. I do not challenge people but you have treated me with such unasked for utterances over phone which you say you have recorded for later use.. aap mahaan hain..what exactly is on your mind.. why do you not talk to me when I have repeatedly called you later.. I have absolutely no intentions of disturbing your relationship with Mr. Bachchan.. I have no reasons to do so.. I have no reasons to come in your way.. I have no reasons to threaten you for whatever you might have tried to rake up during the conversation over phone..

I write all this so that you can calm down and pray what has actually disturbed you to use that kind of language over phone.. come out of all this and behave like a good human being.. I have no reasons to find faults with you.. I have not tried to find faults with you.. threatening is out of question.. I still treat you a younger brother who probably reacts differently to situations.. it is all right.. but please treat this as an answer to your phone call since you are not receiving my call..

Have a nice day and enjoy life rather than getting into unwanted and unfounded issues.. do not think that I am here to malign or make someone’s image.. I am not capable of that at all..

Your well wisher
Abhaya Sharma

Day 672

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh

You bring us pride every time you write of yourself in such august company as could be treated as the most powerful.. we take pride in your achievements.. as if we have achieved what you achieved.. does it sound too optimistic.. no, no we are indeed keen on knowing the great strides that you have made not only as an actor but also as a super human.. I personally bow down to touch your feet.. to be blessed as someone who knew you even if not met you.. it is a matter of great honour to just know you.. and to have known you for forty years speaks of some strange satisfactions in personal life.. you are a blissful person and we all belong to the country together.. a country which is so unified despite all its diversity.. a country that has a cultural and social heritage that wounds (the verb form of wind and not the wound the noun..) into magnificence so easily.. we are indeed rich by having Amitabh Bachchan on our side of the earth.. thank you brother for being born as an Indian for being born as one amongst us.. how could we ever pay our debts to Dr. Bachchan and Shrimati Teji Bachchan for giving birth to iconic yet very humanlike Amitabh Bachchan of Hindi Cinema..

I am sure I would not miss the Teen Patti at any cost.. I might as well pick some time to view Rann in cinema hall some day.. I wish the brother of millions of Indians and world poplulace the very best at every single moment of his life..

I take leave of you rather arbitrarily.. yet I must confess what Gordon Brown has achieved with you talking so highly about him.. it is no small matter that the powerful men in the world recognize and assert your powers as an actor.. Thank you Mr. Brown for all the nice and kind words.. and here is a joke to share from Sir Ben Kingsley.. I am not only going to meet the God I am going to act along with him.. he was picture perfect in Gandhi and even if he said what he said in the lighter moments.. he was not far away from the truth.. I am sure Teen Patti would be a great movie to watch and enjoy in theatres..

Ha! I said a lot of after taking the break.. usual me.. do not know how i shall end the conversation with you.. I never want it to end.. but end temporarily it must.. smile bhaai.. smile in the mirror.. no, no, not the Mumbai mirror but the mirror of the whole world..

Love Affection and Respect
Abhaya Sharma

Maha Shivaratri

Best Wishes for the great Festival of Maha Shivratri …
Kar charan kratumva
Kayajam karmajumva
Shravan nayan jamva
manasam va pararadham
Vihatam Vihatmva
sarvmetat kshamasva
Jay Jay Karunaabdhe
Shri Mahadev Shambho !

OH Lord Mahadev Shambho.. please forgive me for my wrong deeds that I might have commited by my hands.. feets.. body.. ears or eyes.. by my actions or by the mind.. I seek forgiveness from thee again and again knowing you as the kindest of all!
Abhaya Sharma
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Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh
I come back again with this song which I rate as one of the best from your film Yaraana..
Bhole o BholeVo roothadil tootamere yaar ko mana levo pyaar phir jaga de…
Oh let the people watch it on youtube..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PjnDFRNUEzY
Oh you were so wonderful in that song sequence I am sure even Amjad Khan’s smile in between is a proof of how good you were at your art and craft..
Have a great day.. and I wish Aishwarya gets over her throat infection.. her fever.. her swallowing and other difficulties at the earliest.. oh sometimes the media men can get just too nasty but then you have been living with their nuances for four decades now.. gussa thook do bhaai.. un kaanon par joo nahi rengane vaali.. ek kahavat hai.. kshama badan ko chahiye chhotan ko utpaat.. you are much above them in almost every way.. ignore their mistakes..
Love Regards and Respect
Abhaya Sharma
PS I hope the doctors advise on her condition has been sought.. yet I believe in Abhsishek’s funda.. araam badi cheez hai munh dhak ke soiye.. let her relax and take the much needed rest.. Take care

Amitabh's post of day 660 - Reply Post

Wonderful account of a repast from the past..
Oh! you took along me to those days that I too would have spend with the same vigour and same zest and equal amount of lovability of the days bygone..

Respected Brother
adar Charan Sparsch

The morning television as it was switched to Times Now not to hear the news but to find about if the Aman Ki Asha would be there sometimes.. The frame caught you reading those beautiful words of Gulzaar Sahabs pen.. and to my surprise the announcement that there is going to be a very special weekend with Amitabh Bachchan.. oh! I should not have taken your name.. forgive me brother.. It made up my day.. just the news of it..

Then cam and settle down in front of the Internet.. oh what a glorious vivid account of what some prefer to call history in the realm of today.. There is no doubt that I shall read it one more time if not many more times.. How much close you were to us then than now.. that account of Holi and the rest of it.. simply very exciting.. of not having the luxury of summer holidaying.. of the great fun had outdoors till the dark set in.. that great enthusiasm to get prepared for some special friends party or even the description of the summer extravaganza.. it all sounded so very similar.. it all sounded as if you were not telling your story but our stories.. that you as a human being has definitely recalled your past with such clarity and elan that an Abhaya Sharma can never ever emulate.. yet I shall make an effort to versify some of it.. not today.. not immediately.. but not in distant future.. I shall definitely make efforts to do it in prose if poetic mood does not encroach me easily.. I know I can not write poetry at wish alone.. I have never been able to do that.. it just has to happen on its own.. to be precise know I can not plan it unlike the prose.. so be it.. let us hope that I am able to do it.. not to please you.. not even to test my Hindi skills.. yet just to express myself alongside you as I do it.. bhaai! tussi great ho! Tussi to chha gaye!! mazaa aa gaya!!!

More later
Love Affection and respect ( one each for Peace, Harmony ad Brotherhood!)
Abhaya Sharma